i wish it was possible for me to be more focused and lucid after such a long vacation. almost two weeks of almost no work seems to have ground my brain to a halt. it's also the fact that Bossman is leaving for good on Friday and yet my status at work doesn't seem like it's going to change. i just want him to get the hell out of my life so i can stop bottling my frustration with him, for as he moves to leave, he grows all the more annoying.

three days remain. hurry up and get here, Friday.

it's just been a hormonal 24 hours and i'm always annoyed when i cry and can't help it. it makes me angry, which makes my behavior worse, which makes me angrier still. also i brought five or six pounds back with me from vacation and it's feeling like nothing is on my side, least of all my body with its stupid weight gain and crying spells.

it's so complicated being me.